Sunday, March 4, 2012
Someone I Used To Know
It's pretty hilarious and spot on (WARNING: Contains a couple foul words.)
Thursday, February 9, 2012
Late Night Walk Home
I get to walk back and forth to school. Luckily, my landlord works at the school, so I can get a ride with her in the morning if I go early. But at night, after I have studied all evening, no one is at school to drive me home, so tonight I walked. It's close to a 25 minute walk from school to my apartment and it was an amazing walk tonight. There were very few clouds in the sky, full moon, stars bright and shining. I LOVED the walk tonight and I also had my headphones in, listening to music as I walked. About halfway home a song came on that put it all in perspective: Jesus Calling by 33Miles. Talk about the song that I needed to hear at that very moment.
Verse 1What do you see when you look at your world today?I bolded, underlined, blew up the last 2 lines in the pre-chorus because thats what really hit home with me on this song! As I walked down the dark street, surrounded by the trees, felt the strong ocean breeze in my face, I realized that if I view this place as misery, thats all I will ever be while I'm here… miserable. Some things are difficult to change about the island as well as some of the people here, but instead of seeing my circumstances here as all the bad things, I gotta look at the good. For example, yea, I would have preferred to stay at school another 20 minutes, studied a little more, got in my car and drove home in 3 mins, but I couldn't so I had to walk. Now, tonight was a PERFECT night to walk the 25 minutes home. It didn't rain on me. It wasn't humid. There was a strong, cool breeze. I walked by the moonlight, didn't even need the flashlight I had in my backpack. And best of all, I didn't encounter any goats, donkeys, angry cows, wild hogs (yes… I've seen one here and it has to weigh 300+ pounds), or angry dogs that want to eat me.
Is it so full of clutter that you feel like you're going insane?
And you can't fight back, cuz you're just too afraid.
And it seems like the clouds in your sky, don't wanna change.
Pre-chorus
You see, there's always another story
Another side to every coin
And how you see your circumstance
Is all about a choice
Chorus
When you see the rushing wind,
Feel the pouring rain,
Hear the thunder now,
As the clouds roll in.
You're blinded by the lightning,
Do you also hear that still, small voice saying,
"It's okay, You're not alone.
You may be scared to death, but I won't let you go."
You may think the sky above is falling,
But can you hear Jesus calling?
Verse 2
What do you see when you look at your world today?
Do you see a glimmer of hope,
or has it all turned to grey?
Well start by counting your blessings, one by one
And I'm sure right then,
You'll start to see the Son.
Pre-chorus
You see, there's always another story
Another side to every coin
And how you see your circumstance
Is all about a choice
Chorus
When you see the rushing wind,
Feel the pouring rain,
Hear the thunder now,
As the clouds roll in.
You're blinded by the lightning,
Do you also hear that still, small voice saying,
"It's okay, You're not alone.
You may be scared to death, but I won't let you go."
You may think the sky above is falling,
But can you hear Jesus calling?
Bridge
Oh calling out to you.
Because the darker the night,
The brighter HE can shine.
Chorus
When you see the rushing wind,
Feel the pouring rain,
Hear the thunder now,
As the clouds roll in.
You're blinded by the lightning,
Do you also hear that still, small voice saying,
"It's okay, You're not alone.
You may be scared to death, but I won't let you go."
You may think the sky above is falling,
But can you hear Jesus calling?
So, all in all, it was a wonderful walk home and I am glad I didn't have a car tonight to take me away from that 25 minutes of calm, study free, relaxing time (and I got some exercise that hasn't happened much since I've been here).
I'll end this by repeating the bridge from the song: Because the darker the night, the brighter HE can shine.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Finally some R&R
2 days of back to back big assignments was finally over today (seemed like forever!).
I had a Board Review exam on Monday and did really well on that, then prepped for a Path 2 quiz which I was very nervous about going into it. Ended up doing good on it as well, so overall, it's been a good week!
So, I treated myself to a lil R&R this evening by going on a Night Dive. Got an email last night about it and was like… Yep, I'm doing it! We went to a site called STENAPA Reef and it was amazing! I've never done a night dive before and had NO idea what to expect, but I had fun. Saw a Barracuda that was as long as my whole body, a couple turtles that could eat me for an appetizer for dinner, over 25 Sting Rays, lobsters, awesome coral, at least 5 lion fish (1 was the biggest I've ever seen) and much, much more!
Was a good, relaxing night and now I gotta try to study a little *crosses fingers*!
Saturday, January 14, 2012
Christmas, Friends, Travel and The Like
Break was really good! Started it off with vacation with my family and then was home for almost all the rest of it. Had a wonderful Christmas and was able to hang out with my sis and bro-in-law for almost a week which was great! Went duck hunting with my bro-in-law and shot my first duck ever! So much fun! Enjoyed getting together with friends, both old and new! So many people I haven't seen in a while and was great catching up with them!
Sad part of it was saying goodbye to 2 of my best friends for the past 2 years, Jeremy and Bridget. Jeremy got a new job in Mississippi and him and Bridget moved down there right after I got home from school, so I was only able to see them for one day before they left. :( You can still come back Mississippi!!!!! ;)
The end of my break consisted of one of the highlights and then contained the low-lights of my vacation. My dad got me tickets to go to the Cotton Bowl where Arkansas whoooooped up on the Big 12 Kansas State! WOO PIG! Unfortunately, I picked up some baaaaaad food poisoning that afternoon of the game, so about halfway thru it, I couldn't enjoy it as much as I wished. Drove home the next day still feeling queazy, but made it home. The following day was when I was SUPPOSED to leave to head back to school, with a stop in Dallas to spend the night before finishing the journey the following morning. Welllllll, American Airlines had other plans for me and decided it wouldn't be a big deal if they cancelled my flight (which coincidentally was the last flight) from Fort Smith to Dallas about an hour and a half before I was supposed to leave. Therefore, my connection that left at 5:45am from Dallas would be missed and the trickle down effect continued all the way thru to Statia. So, leaving at 10:45 the next day from Fort Smith didn't put me into St. Maarten til 9 o'clock, just in time to not come even close to catching the last flight to Statia. So, yay for me..I get to spend a night in St. Maarten and fly standby for the whole day the following day because missing my flight to Statia meant there were no seats open until 24 hours later. Ughhhh! Finally made it to Statia and went straight to school to avoid missing any more classes than I already did. Trust me... American will be receiving a bill for my hotel room and expenses for their flight cancellation. They will regret doing it for sure!
Other than that, I'm just glad to be back for my last semester. It was hard leaving home, but this semester was the easiest to leave because I knew that in just 3 short months, I would be getting on a plane, leaving this island FOR GOOD! I get to go home to my friends and family for the summer while I study for my first Board exam. Can't wait for that day to come... I've actually already started a countdown: 92 days! I can do this!!!
Here are a few pics from my break to share:
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Block 3 done, shelf exams to come!
WHEW!!!! That was a LONGGGGGGG week! Just finished my Block 3 exams yesterday and they went GREAT! :) I studied so hard for block 3 that I almost lost my mind! But I did really well on all 3 exams and now I just have to hold it together for the shelf exams (Friday and Tuesday) then I'm getting my butt on a plane and GOING HOME!!!
Just to prove how tired I was after these exams, I fell asleep last night at 8:30 after watching the newest episode of Dexter. Wasn't really planning on going to bed, just a little nap, but I didn't wake up til 4:30 in the morning. Woke up and watched a few TV episodes I have downloaded from before blocks and then went back to bed. Didn't wake up until noon! WHEW! Slept for 12 hours and I feel great now!
Just over 5 days until I get on a plane to St. Maarten and I'll be home the following day!!!! (7 days, 6 hours and 11 minutes to be exact)

Reason why you go to the Doctor and not WebMD or google when you are sick...
Thursday, November 10, 2011
32 days...
Just had exams this week, so I have a little down time to take a breath before the end of the semester chugs along and ramps up the heat!
Not a whole lot has happened this past month... except for the CARDINALS WON THE WORLD SERIES!!! WOO HOO!! Pretty awesome! My studying suffered a lil that weekend because if I weren't home watching the 2 games (5 and 7) of the Series, I was keeping up to date on my iPad while doing a little studying! But I was representing the Cards down here in Statia.
I took a trip to Saba after block 1 to see some of my friends, many of which are going to be leaving the island in a few short weeks to go prep for the Step 1 and on to clinicals. Only took one pic the whole time I was there and it was at the airport when I was leaving.
Had fun while I was there and got some studying done at the same time which was an added bonus! :) And then on my way back to Statia, we had a layover in St. Maarten for about 2.5 hours so I got to go to the grocery store there and get some good meat to cook... Statia meet is pretty sketchy! Been cooking Pulled Pork BBQ, Beef Stroganoff and many other things in the slow cooker this semester. My roommate is blessed to have me as his roommate! ;) haha
Other than that, nothing new here. Just trying to turn on the study engine again to gear up for finals. 32 days til I leave this rock and head home for Christmas! Gonna be a fun-fillled break for sure! Hopefully get to see my best friend from undergrad's wedding in Dallas just before the New Year, going to Indy for family Christmas and a Colts game (Go Horse!) and being lazy at home with friends! :)
I leave you with the following, self explanatory picture:
Sunday, September 18, 2011
Scubaaaaa!
We went to a site called Aquarium on the southwest side of the island and WOW!! It was definitely the best dive spot I have been to in the Caribbean! Tons of fish of all kinds of varieties! Also saw several Eels, lobster, and at least 3 Lionfish.
Now, the Lionfish are very pretty fish, but they are very bad for the other fish in the reef as well as the coral itself. They have no natural predators and will eat up the reef until they are fat and happy!
The Lionfish have big spines mixed into those fins that carry toxins that can even harm humans. Sooo, our dive instructor Glenn used a small speargun to kill them. He got 2 of them for sure and the biggest one got hit, but managed to get away, so he may or may not have died.
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Seriously?
Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining at all, but I've been cooped up in my house all day for nothing. They closed up the school and no one could go there to study or anything b/c of the storm. Thats the only place I can get productive studying done, so today all I did was watch several episodes of Friday Night Lights (thanks mom for getting me hooked on that!) and watch football! Not a bad day by any means, but I do need to be studying! :/
So, now that they opened up the school, I am there now and attempting to study. As you can tell by me blogging, its not going well so far! loL! Ohhhh well! There is always tomorrow right?
Oh, and I'm keeping up to date with the Hogs game via Twitter! Go HOGS!
Woooooo Pig Sooie!!!
Friday, September 9, 2011
Tropical Storm Maria
She is on her way here and is gonna give us basically a direct hit. The center is projected to hit a hundred miles south of us and travel southwest of us, but that means that we will be getting the Northeast side of the storm, which if you know anything about hurricanes, the Northeast side is the side that brings the most rain and winds.
I just got an email from the school and they told us that they were closing the school building to students at 5:00 today (they kicked everyone out about 20 mins ago) and they will reopen on Monday at 8:00 am. 8 AM?!?!?! This storm will be outta here by saturday afternoon... I can't study at home! UGHHH!!!!!!
My landlord of course does not have a generator, so if (and probably more appropriately WHEN) the power goes out, it will be dark, hot and miserable here. I have plenty of water and food, but its still gonna suck! :(
I'm ok with the storm as long as I have power... thats all I'm asking for is to not knock out the power. Just one little thing! Thats it.. simple as that!
Well, if I have power and internet, I'll update as it goes!
Until then... here is a look at sweet lil Maria on her way over here.
Friday, August 5, 2011
One more block weekend.
And on that note... Off to neuro!
Sunday, July 31, 2011
It's Hurricane Season...
Once she strengthens, you will see her being called Tropical Storm (Depression) Emily. More than likely will bring sustained winds of around 60 mph to our area. I'm getting ready to go with my roommate to the store to get some water and what not. Someone suggested to us to take water bottles, freeze them and then if (and more likely WHEN) then power goes out, we can place them strategically throughout the fridge to keep all of our food from spoiling. Hopefully if we do lose power, it won't be for to terribly long. I'll prolly end up camping out at the school because they have a backup generator and we will still have power and A/C!
As far as communications go, I got no clue what could be instore! Can the island internet go down in a storm? You betcha it can (and has before)!! If we lose power, I don't expect the cell towers to work either, so texting and what not don't really seem like that would be possible either! But who knows! Its all a toss up, but for now, we wait to see which direction Emily will take. Last I heard she was forecasted to pass directly over Dominica and that would put us about a hundred miles or so north of the center.
But like I said... its a toss up right now. Will know more as the day goes on and into tomorrow.
Supposed to arrive here on Monday night or Tuesday morning, so my 4 day weekend could be extended to a longer one. Not against that, but with only 16 days til the semester is over and I leave the island, I'm not interested in days off because my behind will be on a Winair flight to SXM on Aug 16 at 6:30, come hell or high water!! :)
Monday, July 4, 2011
SIGECAPS
Sleep disturbance
Interest (lack of)
Guilt
Energy (lack of)
Concentration (lack of)
Appetite changes
Psychomotor retardation
Suicidal ideations
So if you have 5 out of those 8 criteria, you are clinically depressed and should be treated for depression.
Now, I share that with you to share this. Call it Med School Syndrome, or hypochondriac or whatever you wanna call it, but I would say that over 50% of med students have at least 5 of those 8 (Suicidal ideations may be a little over the top for most however).
Since I have been in med school have I had:
Sleep disturbances? CHECK
Lack of interest in things I used to love? CHECK
Guilt (maybe from not studying, or failing an exam)? CHECK
Lack of energy? CHECK
Lack of concentration? CHECK
Appetite changes? CHECK
Psychomotor retardation? Nah... ok there.
Suicidal ideations? Nope.
So, lets count that up shall we? 1...2...3...4...5...6 6 out of 8. And I said earlier that 5/8 is clinically depressed. And I guarantee I could find you AT LEAST 50% of my class that would have to say yes to at least 5 of those criteria as well. If many of them say no, they are lying.
Needless to say, Med School can easily make you clinically depressed. Not to say that you actually are depressed like some other people who suffer from depression, but the signs point right to it!
Studies have shown that 1 in 5 medical students do suffer from depression. Now, if you apply those criteria more generally to anyone, not suffering from depressed moods, those numbers would go up a lot!
I will tell you that I am by no means depressed, but as far as the criteria are applied, I fit the mold.
Just some food for thought! :)
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
1/3 of my way home!
I'm relieved that the first exams are over and they went fairly well. Pharm was tough, but I passed it (unlike many other ppl). Micro and Neuro went well and I'm off to a good start! :)
I'm pretty sure after the exams were over (I skipped Neuro class due to the fact that I wasn't going to class right after taking 2 tough exams... Neuro exam was Monday and Pharm and Micro were Tuesday) I took like a 3+ hour nap! It was amazing!
I'm sitting in my classroom right now getting ready to start my second class of the day... Micro. Already had Pharm and we jumped straight into Anemia meds. I'm actually 4 days behind already for Micro because he finished block 1 info early and just started onto block 2 last week... of course I didn't pay attention to any of that because I had other things I had to study!
Well, bout time to start class, so I'll update more later... not much new happened since last update due to exams! I'm definitely relaxing this weekend! :)
Monday, June 6, 2011
T-7 days til Block 1 (Edit: Pics added)
Micro is boring and I have learned nothing... gonna be one of those classes that the review I do for the Step will teach me the important things for the course (kinda like Biochem because of the awful prof at Saba I had).
Loving Neuro! The prof in there is great! He has a different way of teaching than most... he doesn't use PowerPoints at all! But it makes you draw out and take good notes in class where you learn it well that way the first time! So far so good anyway!
Well, gotta get to it. Prolly won't be updating much if at all for the next week or so. Might be meeting up with some Saba friends on St. Maarten the weekend after blocks for some R&R on the beach. Then after next block (Block 2), my parents and my sister are coming down for a vacation to visit and I'm gonna spend that weekend in St. Maarten with them! Yay! :)
I'll get some pics posted in a bit...
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Laundry... Caribbean style
Friday, May 20, 2011
Some new pics from Statia including a NEW CAR!!! *Plays Price is Right theme song*
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Tick Tock Tick Tock
So far, Statia hasn't been a bad experience. I have enjoyed getting to know my classmates (and trying to remember everyone's name). I like my professors. And the school building... well, I guess this place isn't paradise! haha. I am getting settled in and my roommate should be here tomorrow afternoon to get settled in.
I don't feel terribly overwhelmed with the first week of school which is much more than I can say about the first DAY at Saba. After 1 day we all felt like we were behind.
The island here is different. Its MUCH flatter than Saba was, which is nice when you are trying to get somewhere, but its also not nice when you talk about temperatures. Saba was so high up that it caught a lot of the trade winds, so you would constantly have a 10-15 mph wind on Saba, but the wind isn't so strong or consistent here. Sometimes it blows, sometimes it doesn't. But it has been really hot and humid here lately.
Last night I went out with some guys from my class to Smoke Alley. Its a local restaurant that has some good food! I got the burger and it was pretty good. It wasn't very cheap, but it was good. About the time we got there, it started to rain and storms rolled in and I felt like I was back home in Arkansas! Thunder, lightning, heavy rain, flooding! Made me feel at home! (I have seen lightning like 2 other times down here, so it's not a common occurrence).
I've got a little of studying to do for Neuro, finish up some Micro and then review over Pharm and I'm good for the weekend. (Not having ANY classes on Friday, seems to help keep me sane too!)
In the meantime, I'm trying to figure out where my parents and my friend can stay when they come down to visit in July. I've gotten some good feedback from several students, but I am gonna ask a few more before I decide where to tell them! I am DEFINITELY looking forward to seeing them because it cuts my semester almost in half! :)
Well, back to studying and then off to home (Don't have internet at home, so I study, surf the web while I'm on campus.)
Cheers! (Thats for all my Canadian friends!)
EDIT: Here are some pics of the island so far. (You can click on the pics to make them bigger)
Sunday, May 8, 2011
St. Eustatius
The island is different from Saba, definitely much bigger and MUCH more flat! My appt is a 5 min walk to campus (only place I can get internet for the time being). So, needless to say, I have been at the school quite a bit so I can have something to do besides watch TV (and so I can talk to ppl back home!) :)
Umm... not a whole lot to say so far because I have only been here for 2 days. I'm sooo ready for August to get here so I can go home for a while. Hopefully I can get off this island for good by December, but it all will depend on how the class schedule works out. I'm basically one class behind their schedule since the transfer and it might bite me in the last semester. But if it is a better experience than Saba was, I will take it any day.
Well, I guess I will update with more info once I have more to say. I did find out that they only have exams every 4 weeks here instead of like Saba where it was every 3 weeks. So that makes it a lot less stress all the time, but there will be more material covered on exams, so that will kinda stink.
Anywho, I'm gonna walk back home and get some food to eat. It's either Frosted Flakes, Peanut Butter and Jelly or Pasta because that's all I got! LOL. Grocery store run tomorrow for sure!
Miss all you guys and Happy Mother's Day to the best mom in the world! :)







